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Anna, on Patreon
Nov. 7th, 2021 08:27 amI did work on a render really late Saturday, & I was unhappy with it even before I found a big error in it.
I reshot it & put it on Patreon. Wow, too bad I have no subscribers to read this content!
https://www.patreon.com/posts/anna-doubled-58397150
But seriously, I don't want to trick fans of Zatanna into giving me $4 for this. It's a few sentences about 3D character design & extremely boring. Don't give me money. I would feel bad.
I reshot it & put it on Patreon. Wow, too bad I have no subscribers to read this content!
https://www.patreon.com/posts/anna-doubled-58397150
Stage magician Anna occupies a strange place in my stable of characters, in that she was created as fan art of DC Comics' Zatanna Zatara, but I just kept her around ....
But seriously, I don't want to trick fans of Zatanna into giving me $4 for this. It's a few sentences about 3D character design & extremely boring. Don't give me money. I would feel bad.
My Patreon is live!
Oct. 26th, 2021 09:43 amMy Patreon is live. After literally not bothering to go live with it for years. https://www.patreon.com/niauropsaka
I cut out the goals I'd put in & never gone public with. Some of them were jokes, and I didn't want to get in trouble for promising to clone Yazawa Ai. But largely I have had to accept that promising to do things like that doesn't work well for me.
Oh, & I still have a ko-fi too. http://ko-fi.com/niauropsaka/
I cut out the goals I'd put in & never gone public with. Some of them were jokes, and I didn't want to get in trouble for promising to clone Yazawa Ai. But largely I have had to accept that promising to do things like that doesn't work well for me.
Oh, & I still have a ko-fi too. http://ko-fi.com/niauropsaka/
patreon and ko-fi and…we’ll see
Oct. 25th, 2021 08:59 am
OK, I am seriously considering finally, after years, opening my Patreon to donations. And I remembered that I have a ko-fi. I thought about exclusive high-res images, but I don’t like tying my pieces to specific sites, especially not accounts on third-party sites.
So, yeah. I don’t think I’ve ever linked this. I am apparently made of imposter syndrome and figs.
http://ko-fi.com/niauropsaka/
Probably not going to put much art on ko-fi though. Maybe some abstract stuff? I think even my sfw stuff would be nsfw to them and my nsfw stuff a bannable offense. e _ e
Today I have been working on my still-unlaunched patreon page for the first time in years. Deleted the “goals” I’d cooked up a long time ago when I was more optimistic. May ditch any idea of “tiers” too.
Tumblr being Tumblr, I had mixed feelings about posting & reblogging smut on an account that wasn’t a smut account by definition. And like a fool, I didn’t just make a smut alt, because I kind of started out with nudes as part of what I did.
But now I really just want to be able to show an erection in an artwork without it being hidden away on some dedicated “naughty” site.
Still can on Twitter! Not that Twitter is a good site for...much.
(And of course Dreamwidth has cuts, & is built to allow this kind of thing.)
But now I really just want to be able to show an erection in an artwork without it being hidden away on some dedicated “naughty” site.
Still can on Twitter! Not that Twitter is a good site for...much.
(And of course Dreamwidth has cuts, & is built to allow this kind of thing.)
OK. I have to get this out or I will go crazy.
A couple of years ago, I was watching that YouTuber that people said looked like that politician. And I was just laughing because to me they both look like one of my cousins.
But then I noticed something about the eyes. Something familiar. Too familiar.
...Oh no. It's the same eyes as...
OK, let's get this straight. I am not that person's mother. I have always been strongly pro-choice, & when I got pregnant at 19, I just had an abortion. Also I have never been pregnant, & I definitely never slept with that rich boy with those same Northern European eyes.
I definitely did not go to visit my uncle Yani in Leeds, his name is spelled Yanni, he was in Sheffield at the time, also I don't even have an uncle. Also I have never been to England. I don't even speak English! I just use Google Translate constantly!
Anyway, I have never given up a baby for adoption. Also if I were that one's biological mother, I definitely would want my child to know.
If I maybe implied that I thought that so-and-so was mine, well, I was mistaken. Obviously.
Also it was just something I found funny. like, “Oh, yeah, we could be related! That would be a funny April Fool’s joke if anyone knew what I really look like!” Also I don’t actually look anything like this person, it’s just some of my relatives who do. Except all my relatives are Sentinelese & don’t look like anybody.
I certainly did not track down a YouTuber’s parents to confirm that they were the couple who adopted a baby I never had; and also they weren’t, they adopted a different baby; and also that person isn’t even adopted!
Today, 2021 April 1, I can with a clean conscience say, no, it never happened, & also what were we talking about? I have no idea.
I will delete this later.
Yes.
(Let us never speak of this again.)
A couple of years ago, I was watching that YouTuber that people said looked like that politician. And I was just laughing because to me they both look like one of my cousins.
But then I noticed something about the eyes. Something familiar. Too familiar.
...Oh no. It's the same eyes as...
OK, let's get this straight. I am not that person's mother. I have always been strongly pro-choice, & when I got pregnant at 19, I just had an abortion. Also I have never been pregnant, & I definitely never slept with that rich boy with those same Northern European eyes.
I definitely did not go to visit my uncle Yani in Leeds, his name is spelled Yanni, he was in Sheffield at the time, also I don't even have an uncle. Also I have never been to England. I don't even speak English! I just use Google Translate constantly!
Anyway, I have never given up a baby for adoption. Also if I were that one's biological mother, I definitely would want my child to know.
If I maybe implied that I thought that so-and-so was mine, well, I was mistaken. Obviously.
Also it was just something I found funny. like, “Oh, yeah, we could be related! That would be a funny April Fool’s joke if anyone knew what I really look like!” Also I don’t actually look anything like this person, it’s just some of my relatives who do. Except all my relatives are Sentinelese & don’t look like anybody.
I certainly did not track down a YouTuber’s parents to confirm that they were the couple who adopted a baby I never had; and also they weren’t, they adopted a different baby; and also that person isn’t even adopted!
Today, 2021 April 1, I can with a clean conscience say, no, it never happened, & also what were we talking about? I have no idea.
I will delete this later.
Yes.
(Let us never speak of this again.)
Socrates, what is drag?
Jul. 4th, 2019 11:07 pmThis spring I discovered Natalie Wynn (aka ContraPoints). She does these videos (on pretty serious subjects) that often use a lot of drag tropes and crazy visual framing devices.
I’m thinking about how that kind of work clicks with me. I want to write like that, with wacky dialogues. But I don’t think I’m patient enough to produce much of that kind of writing outside a simple prose form.
Part of why she clicks with me is also the particular kind of what-I’m-calling-drag character of some of her recent videos. Super-femme, monstrous, & surreal all at once. Not for nothing is her (ever mis-aimed) fandom calling her “Dark Mother” now. Yeah, I guess there’s a reason that would click with me. I kind of want to be the hero, the crone, & the voice of the author all at once. And of course there are all those fantastical variants of my cartoon self.
(Oh, yeah! I forgot I mentioned her in a post about a strip I stopped working on. Yeah, there was a good reason I had to wait, I think. I had to get back into “what Nia thinks” about vanity & beauty, and away from what Natalie was saying–even though I already had lots of ideas of my own. It really was irritating to have her voice in my head. That’s not the main reason I have abandoned that strip, though.)
I’m thinking about how that kind of work clicks with me. I want to write like that, with wacky dialogues. But I don’t think I’m patient enough to produce much of that kind of writing outside a simple prose form.
Part of why she clicks with me is also the particular kind of what-I’m-calling-drag character of some of her recent videos. Super-femme, monstrous, & surreal all at once. Not for nothing is her (ever mis-aimed) fandom calling her “Dark Mother” now. Yeah, I guess there’s a reason that would click with me. I kind of want to be the hero, the crone, & the voice of the author all at once. And of course there are all those fantastical variants of my cartoon self.
(Oh, yeah! I forgot I mentioned her in a post about a strip I stopped working on. Yeah, there was a good reason I had to wait, I think. I had to get back into “what Nia thinks” about vanity & beauty, and away from what Natalie was saying–even though I already had lots of ideas of my own. It really was irritating to have her voice in my head. That’s not the main reason I have abandoned that strip, though.)
Yes, the recent comic sequence is meant to continue. I know roughly how, but I just haven’t done it yet. After yesterday’s render, which was meant to be a quick little thing. I got distracted by thinking about lights.
Anyway, today I watched Natalie Wynn’s brand-spanking-new video, ‘Beauty,’ and it is thematically tangential to where I was already going, and now her voice is in my head and it’s irritating.
Anyway, today I watched Natalie Wynn’s brand-spanking-new video, ‘Beauty,’ and it is thematically tangential to where I was already going, and now her voice is in my head and it’s irritating.
No art for this. I never remember when Mother’s Day is, and it’s different in different countries, but apparently it was today in some places. Today I did actually talk to my own real mother, who is alive and mostly well.
I’ve been thinking about motherhood lately, and I have some pretty mixed feelings about this. Not having any actual children of my own, I have lately developed a worrying impulse to pretend that particular younger adults of whom I am fond are my kids. I want to be able to be a mama without putting in the work, apparently.
In one recent case, I was going to make a joke of it, but it turned into a story in my head about if I’d given up a child at twenty, and it got under my skin in a bad way.
Anyway….
Here’s a Twitter thread on othermothers that I enjoyed:
‘Many of you are othermothers.’
The thread talks about its importance in the African diaspora, but I’d say the nature of the ‘othermother’ doesn’t really have a color.
I don’t know what else to add. If you have something interesting to add to this, feel free to tack it on.
Maybe someone will start a Nosy Internet Aunt’s Day & I will finally get some recognition from the internets! But probably neither of those things.
I’ve been thinking about motherhood lately, and I have some pretty mixed feelings about this. Not having any actual children of my own, I have lately developed a worrying impulse to pretend that particular younger adults of whom I am fond are my kids. I want to be able to be a mama without putting in the work, apparently.
In one recent case, I was going to make a joke of it, but it turned into a story in my head about if I’d given up a child at twenty, and it got under my skin in a bad way.
Anyway….
Here’s a Twitter thread on othermothers that I enjoyed:
‘Many of you are othermothers.’
The thread talks about its importance in the African diaspora, but I’d say the nature of the ‘othermother’ doesn’t really have a color.
I don’t know what else to add. If you have something interesting to add to this, feel free to tack it on.
Maybe someone will start a Nosy Internet Aunt’s Day & I will finally get some recognition from the internets! But probably neither of those things.
no art today I think
Apr. 27th, 2019 10:58 pmhttps://niauropsaka.tumblr.com/post/184476542498/no-art-today-i-think
I feel like my art is crap.
I stopped trying to write comics at all.
I spent a long time on a computer game addiction that messed me up. That particular obsession has slowed down a lot, at least.
Lately I seem to go on Twitter, and rather than just put my art there and do art stuff, which is what I got it for, I just yell and yell about politics.
Or I go on Reddit and…I don’t even know.
I don’t know what friends I even have online.
I’m not doing any of this right.
December 13
Dec. 13th, 2017 08:50 am“I want to thank all the white folks in Alabama who showed up to vote for Doug Jones this December 12th.”
“You’re welcome.”
“You–you’re not from Alabama.”
“What? We’re not in Alabama?”
“No. In fact, I have this new statement from the artist: The comic is set in the fictitious state of ‘Chickasaw.’”
“That’s–that’s not a real state.”
“I just said, 'fictitious.’ That is what 'fictitious’ means.”
“I know what it means. But 'Chickasaw’? Really? As if.”
“Apparently, once she decided that the comic strip was not set in Florida, the artist decided to be deliberately vague as to its geographic setting. This is a refinement of that policy, in which our fair city of Thamnopolis is set in no state that actually exists in the real world.”
“All right then, fine. As a white woman of 'Chickasaw,’ I am proud to have voted in 'Chickasaw’s’ special election and send 'Jug Doanes’ to the United States Senate.”
“Uh-huh.”
“What now?”
“For one thing: You are a race-mixer.”
“So does that mean I don’t count as white now?”
“I’m not sure you are part of the demographic I am speaking of, that is all I am saying.”
“I am a white woman, though. I am very, very pale.”
“Also, you are a lez-be-in, and therefore already expected to vote for your fellow librul Democrat.”
“Now you’re just picking nits.”
“I am not! Anyway, and this was the point I was trying to get to before I was interrupted, let’s remember that it has been the black folks of Alabama whose support for progressive, law-abiding, civil-rights-respecting politicians allowed this to happen at all. So to the Republicans relieved that Roy Moore is not embarrassing them on the floor of the Senate in Washington, DC; to the white liberals of Alabama who are relieved to finally have someone other than that ridiculous oaf of a Bible-thumper voting on their putative behalf; and every other white person who is thanking God for this result: Just remember that it was your colored neighbors and cousins who carried most of the load on this.”
“Well, thank you, sweetie.”
“Thank me? For what?”
“For voting against Roy Moore. I mean 'Rex Less.’”
“I’m not talking about me. I live in the fictitious state of Chickasaw, which did not have a special election this Tuesday.”
“Wait, I thought that was sort of a parallel version of Alabama.”
“No.”
“It could be!”
“I don’t think so.”
“Then where was I Tuesday morning, and what was that ballot I filled out?”
“I don’t know.”
“You’re welcome.”
“You–you’re not from Alabama.”
“What? We’re not in Alabama?”
“No. In fact, I have this new statement from the artist: The comic is set in the fictitious state of ‘Chickasaw.’”
“That’s–that’s not a real state.”
“I just said, 'fictitious.’ That is what 'fictitious’ means.”
“I know what it means. But 'Chickasaw’? Really? As if.”
“Apparently, once she decided that the comic strip was not set in Florida, the artist decided to be deliberately vague as to its geographic setting. This is a refinement of that policy, in which our fair city of Thamnopolis is set in no state that actually exists in the real world.”
“All right then, fine. As a white woman of 'Chickasaw,’ I am proud to have voted in 'Chickasaw’s’ special election and send 'Jug Doanes’ to the United States Senate.”
“Uh-huh.”
“What now?”
“For one thing: You are a race-mixer.”
“So does that mean I don’t count as white now?”
“I’m not sure you are part of the demographic I am speaking of, that is all I am saying.”
“I am a white woman, though. I am very, very pale.”
“Also, you are a lez-be-in, and therefore already expected to vote for your fellow librul Democrat.”
“Now you’re just picking nits.”
“I am not! Anyway, and this was the point I was trying to get to before I was interrupted, let’s remember that it has been the black folks of Alabama whose support for progressive, law-abiding, civil-rights-respecting politicians allowed this to happen at all. So to the Republicans relieved that Roy Moore is not embarrassing them on the floor of the Senate in Washington, DC; to the white liberals of Alabama who are relieved to finally have someone other than that ridiculous oaf of a Bible-thumper voting on their putative behalf; and every other white person who is thanking God for this result: Just remember that it was your colored neighbors and cousins who carried most of the load on this.”
“Well, thank you, sweetie.”
“Thank me? For what?”
“For voting against Roy Moore. I mean 'Rex Less.’”
“I’m not talking about me. I live in the fictitious state of Chickasaw, which did not have a special election this Tuesday.”
“Wait, I thought that was sort of a parallel version of Alabama.”
“No.”
“It could be!”
“I don’t think so.”
“Then where was I Tuesday morning, and what was that ballot I filled out?”
“I don’t know.”
If you'd told me ten years ago that I'd spend half a decade obsessed with Poser-style 3D art; that I would accumulate a mere handful of very sporadic followers, mostly posting to myself; that I'd finally give up after six years; and in particular that my last published image would be a picture of Jenny Everywhere wearing nothing but rainbow-striped knee-socks—I'd probably say, "Sure, makes sense to me. The rainbow knee socks sound fun."
It was with this thought in mind that I didn't even try to post art on Tuesday. I did no renders the next two days, which was nice, actually. I suppose I really do have better things to do with my time.
So there it is. My 3D career closes out on a picture of Jenny Everywhere in her gaily striped socks. I'm very proud. So proud.
...
I'll render something else.
It was with this thought in mind that I didn't even try to post art on Tuesday. I did no renders the next two days, which was nice, actually. I suppose I really do have better things to do with my time.
So there it is. My 3D career closes out on a picture of Jenny Everywhere in her gaily striped socks. I'm very proud. So proud.
...
I'll render something else.
49 years ago today
Apr. 4th, 2017 11:14 pmForty-nine years ago today, they killed the Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. Those that conspired to kill him were part of the power establishment, including government officeholders. They killed him to stop his challenge to the ruling class. Dr. King wanted to share the wealth of the nation with the people of that nation who were excluded from power; with the poor, the despised, and the oppressed.
I see people call themselves “conservative,” “conservatives,” “right-wing,” or the like for a lot of different reasons–some good, some bad. Even I’m “conservative” in some sense, on an issue or two. Tradition can be worth defending, sometimes.
But the United States of America has a history of ridiculous, extreme racism on one hand, and extreme, ridiculous “laissez-faire” capitalism on the other hand. In that context, “conservative” has a meaning. “Conservative” has a default, primary meaning. This is what it looks like; this is what it is.
A tradition of racial abuse, or of peonage, or of violence in the service of a ruling elite–that’s not a tradition worth defending or “conserving.”
(No art today.)
I see people call themselves “conservative,” “conservatives,” “right-wing,” or the like for a lot of different reasons–some good, some bad. Even I’m “conservative” in some sense, on an issue or two. Tradition can be worth defending, sometimes.
But the United States of America has a history of ridiculous, extreme racism on one hand, and extreme, ridiculous “laissez-faire” capitalism on the other hand. In that context, “conservative” has a meaning. “Conservative” has a default, primary meaning. This is what it looks like; this is what it is.
A tradition of racial abuse, or of peonage, or of violence in the service of a ruling elite–that’s not a tradition worth defending or “conserving.”
(No art today.)
Please America, stop Hillary
Feb. 25th, 2016 02:02 amI play coy about my exact ethnic background and location. At some point I decided that my comic was largely set in the USA, because it’s a place I lived for years, and I could write that idiom.
But by and large, cartoon Nia has had two “homes”: one is an imaginary part of North America that owes something to Florida but is sometimes colder; and the other is, well, somewhere in Greece.
And both of my homelands have reasons to tell you to stop Hillary Clinton and her Wall Street Democrats.
Greece is overrun by refugees from civil wars, mainly the one in Syria, that American foreign policy intentionally helped start. And when Qaddafi fell in Libya and “Islamic State” started terrorizing the country, it was US Secretary of State Hillary Clinton’s policy to make that happen. When Syria had a famine, Hillary Clinton’s State Department saw it as an opportunity to “degrade” the government’s support among the populace by civil war. Many people in the Middle East think that the chemical attacks on the populace that are blamed on Assad’s government were really performed by American agents; I don’t know if that’s true. In any case, the global refugee crisis is worse because of her decisions.
The USA–Florida especially–has had great numbers of people lose their homes due to policies undertaken by the Wall Street faction in US politics. They “securitized” adjustable rate mortgages, although “financialized” would be more accurate in that they made the whole sector insecure. You’ve probably heard about this before; they turned the very act of homebuying into a scam where both a homeowner and an investor would lose everything they put in, while the original lender would walk away with all the money. It was the “pro-business” politicians, both Democrat and Republican, who repealed the laws that could have stopped it, when Mr Clinton was President. And afterward, Hillary went to New York to be the Wall Street Senator, and make millions of dollars in “speaking fees,” working for the big financial speculators.
Millions of Floridians, and Californians, and Michiganders, and Americans in general lost their homes when the financial bubble burst. And they lost their jobs, and they can’t even stay on welfare in a long-term economic depression because the Clinton administration in the 1990′s even limited that to a few years.
Millions of Syrians and Libyans had to flee their countries, because Hillary Clinton saw the populace as no more than a means to an end to hurt their rulers. This is directly based on the “Realpolitik” theories of Richard Nixon’s Secretary of State Henry Kissinger, a notorious mass murderer who is still protected by the Washington political establishment, and apparently a friend & mentor to Hillary.
Hillary Clinton was in political organizations that pushed those situations over the edge, and in the case of the civil wars, she was a policy setter herself. She is corrupt, she is dangerous, and she has already ruined nations.
If you are an American, please vote for Bernie Sanders in the upcoming primary. He’s more of a “populist” Democrat who will try to help lower-income people. And he seems to be a little bit smarter on foreign policy–at least he isn’t talking about how well he gets along with Henry Kissinger!
If Hillary wins the primary, it will probably become a choice between her and Donald Trump, who is new to politics, in way over his head, playing at being an American Hitler in a desperate bid for support, & probably even worse than Hillary in several other ways. The primary is the best place to stop her.
Don’t reward this evil woman with even more power.
But by and large, cartoon Nia has had two “homes”: one is an imaginary part of North America that owes something to Florida but is sometimes colder; and the other is, well, somewhere in Greece.
And both of my homelands have reasons to tell you to stop Hillary Clinton and her Wall Street Democrats.
Greece is overrun by refugees from civil wars, mainly the one in Syria, that American foreign policy intentionally helped start. And when Qaddafi fell in Libya and “Islamic State” started terrorizing the country, it was US Secretary of State Hillary Clinton’s policy to make that happen. When Syria had a famine, Hillary Clinton’s State Department saw it as an opportunity to “degrade” the government’s support among the populace by civil war. Many people in the Middle East think that the chemical attacks on the populace that are blamed on Assad’s government were really performed by American agents; I don’t know if that’s true. In any case, the global refugee crisis is worse because of her decisions.
The USA–Florida especially–has had great numbers of people lose their homes due to policies undertaken by the Wall Street faction in US politics. They “securitized” adjustable rate mortgages, although “financialized” would be more accurate in that they made the whole sector insecure. You’ve probably heard about this before; they turned the very act of homebuying into a scam where both a homeowner and an investor would lose everything they put in, while the original lender would walk away with all the money. It was the “pro-business” politicians, both Democrat and Republican, who repealed the laws that could have stopped it, when Mr Clinton was President. And afterward, Hillary went to New York to be the Wall Street Senator, and make millions of dollars in “speaking fees,” working for the big financial speculators.
Millions of Floridians, and Californians, and Michiganders, and Americans in general lost their homes when the financial bubble burst. And they lost their jobs, and they can’t even stay on welfare in a long-term economic depression because the Clinton administration in the 1990′s even limited that to a few years.
Millions of Syrians and Libyans had to flee their countries, because Hillary Clinton saw the populace as no more than a means to an end to hurt their rulers. This is directly based on the “Realpolitik” theories of Richard Nixon’s Secretary of State Henry Kissinger, a notorious mass murderer who is still protected by the Washington political establishment, and apparently a friend & mentor to Hillary.
Hillary Clinton was in political organizations that pushed those situations over the edge, and in the case of the civil wars, she was a policy setter herself. She is corrupt, she is dangerous, and she has already ruined nations.
If you are an American, please vote for Bernie Sanders in the upcoming primary. He’s more of a “populist” Democrat who will try to help lower-income people. And he seems to be a little bit smarter on foreign policy–at least he isn’t talking about how well he gets along with Henry Kissinger!
If Hillary wins the primary, it will probably become a choice between her and Donald Trump, who is new to politics, in way over his head, playing at being an American Hitler in a desperate bid for support, & probably even worse than Hillary in several other ways. The primary is the best place to stop her.
Don’t reward this evil woman with even more power.
