Standing by a quarry somewhere in Limbo

[raspberryrain]

OK, I rendered something. It’s crap, but I rendered something. Somebody acknowledge my existence! I’m flashing back to the early days of this account, when I was so lonely & getting nowhere.

OK, my mistake was in not staying in 3D art community spaces. I was running away from them because I was a torrenter and a pirate, which some of them hate. I might have had some more positive feedback if not for that.

I have gotten some encouragement since I did connect with the 3D community. I just don’t talk about torrents and Demonoid, ever.

But right now I really wanted someone I know on Tumblr to acknowledge me. And they aren’t, and I’m going down into a pit of disillusionment.