365 weeks

OK, it’s been about seven years since I started this blog. I’ve been sort of putting off any big changes until now. A piece I posted at the end of April seemed like such a good ‘goodbye’ piece that I mostly stopped doing art, and did stop posting art, early this month. I also wanted to deal with some things by getting into a different headspace. I’m not sure it helped.

Talking about doing this for seven years would mean more if I were actually doing this for the whole seven years, and & really haven’t been.

I didn’t even do any art yesterday.

Oh wait, yes I did. But I only posted it on Twitter.

This is it. This is my new avatar, and I don’t care anymore. Avatar Maker - Create Your Own Avatar Online avatarmaker.com

Yep, that’s it. I’m done with DAZ Studio. I’m out.

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OK, I did actually do some texture work today, but I don’t know if it will ever make it into a comic. The way I’m feeling, could be anywhere from soon to never.

Standing by a quarry somewhere in Limbo

OK, I rendered something. It’s crap, but I rendered something. Somebody acknowledge my existence! I’m flashing back to the early days of this account, when I was so lonely & getting nowhere.

OK, my mistake was in not staying in 3D art community spaces. I was running away from them because I was a torrenter and a pirate, which some of them hate. I might have had some more positive feedback if not for that.

I have gotten some encouragement since I did connect with the 3D community. I just don’t talk about torrents and Demonoid, ever.

But right now I really wanted someone I know on Tumblr to acknowledge me. And they aren’t, and I’m going down into a pit of disillusionment.