Three years on

[raspberryrain]

I suppose tomorrow is the actual anniversary of my first post on this tumblr.

But it was three years ago I opened a gmail account, a dreamwidth, and a tumblr, and started making and posting comics.

I did a comic a day until I couldn’t: I made it four days. I did three comics the next week (but one was huge).

My ambitions were bigger than my patience, I think. I couldn’t keep up. I never really developed the stories I had in my head before I started. And I’ve “quit” several times.

For a year, I would post art sporadically, maybe several comics in a week, maybe almost nothing for a month. I would quit and restart repeatedly.

A bit over a year in, I more or less really quit. Not that it was that different than the time I quit for a bit that first summer. But I had stumbled over a strip that maybe had too much of my real self in it, and it suddenly became too difficult to go on.

Comix Warriors brought me back. I mostly managed to post a comic a week for a year once I had prompts.

Then I did daily renders for a few months. I’m not sure that was a good schedule, but I proved I could produce more than I had been.

And then I wondered what I was doing it for. And I quit again.

I haven’t been writing much. A comic blog gave way to an “art diary.” Really, I’ve been lazy.

Three years in, I don’t know how to mark this passage of time. Do I commit myself to do better? Do I take this as a good place to stop? Do I change the name of the comic blog, finally? Do I just make a commemorative post and go on as I have been?

I think, mainly, I just want to say some things about it.

I fell into making an occasional webcomic without having any previous sense that I even could, just to make myself actually render images.

I have learned a lot about 3d art since I started. I still have a lot to learn. I’ve also learned some things about the business of webcomics.

I’ve also learned that my plans for writing tend to fall apart and disappear when I sit down at the computer.

I don’t know what happens next. Is that bad? Should I have a firmer plan?